|Disclaimer: My husband LOVES the zipper detail in this skirt and just couldn't resist pushing the limits of my conservative comfort zone!|
A few weeks ago, I read this post by Natasha detailing her coming to terms with no longer being a size 8. Of course the title caught my attention...utter transparency snatches my attention every time. Natasha's opens her post stating,
After months of denial, I have finally accepted the fact that I am no longer a size 8. In my acceptance, I did the unthinkable, but probably in hindsight the right thing, I removed most (there are just some pieces I couldn’t let go of) of the size 8′s (especially the pants) that were taking up space in my closet and donated them.
First of all, I think I totally love her! Seriously! Secondly, it's with growing acceptance that I say, "I can relate!" The past year, my body has changed dramatically (to my eye, anyway). It's not typical weight gain, but rather age related (I'm 45) weight redistribution. I almost feel as if I'm in someone else's body sometimes! My waist, which I've NEVER had an issue with before, has thickened. My breasts, (I've always been flat chested) have grown (GASP!!) without any outside influence! My legs are stronger and firmer than ever, so that's been a plus. But I have to accept that my body is NOT the same as it was a year ago, or two years ago. And that doesn't HAVE to be a bad thing.
As in most cases, perception is everything. I can perceive myself to be "heavier" or I can choose to see myself through a woman's eyes; understanding that bodies change and it's a natural part of life. Skinny doesn't equal attractive anymore than curvy equals fat. But I'm going to be honest here. This has not been an easy transition in my thinking, nor is it complete. But I can honestly say that I'm getting there.
One of the things that helps is knowing that I'm doing the healthy things; and so if this is where my body rests, then it must be my "normal". I regularly exercise. I eat healthy MOST of the time. I've spent a HUGE chunk of my life dieting. Feeling guilty for eating. Wanting to look like someone other than myself. I'm really not interested in going back to that twisted mindset.
So from what I can tell, I have three choices. 1....I can get depressed and whine about getting older. That is soooooo not me! 2.....I can determine that I'm not letting this happen and amp up my workouts and carefully guard my calorie intake. NOT really feeling this option at ALL! Do I REALLY want to spend my life working for my body? Isn't it supposed to be working for me??? or 3....Accept and Embrace this new, more.....dare I say it? BOMBSHELL figure! Monty, I'm going with what's behind Door #3! I guess one's never to old to learn how to work the BOMBSHELL!
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